Reflections: I’m Getting Older

Now that I have been 19 and in college for several months, I’ve come to the realization that I am definitely getting older.

I feel like I’ve changed a lot in the past four years. For example, video games are still fun, but I get bored with playing them faster. I am unwilling to jump back in to these games and grind to get back to my previous levels. I used to drink a lot of coke and other soft drinks. Now few soft drinks hold the taste. It feels like after a few sips (if not the first one) the drink just tastes like a carbonated drink that is supposed to taste like more than sugary water. Now the only times I really drink coke are when I mix it with alcohol (though some drinks, I prefer straight).

My desires have changed a lot. I used to want to play video games and later in life design the most realistic war game the world has ever seen. Now all I want to do is travel and experience life. I have a bucket list which includes doing things, people, and being places. I don’t want to sit still and do nothing. I still can sit on the computer and waste lots of time (a vestige of the old personality I am leaving behind), but now I feel empty after I look at the clock and realize that I have accomplished absolutely nothing in the past two hours.

My goal in life used to a vague: do what ever it takes to be remembered.  And by remembered, I meant, I wanted my name to appear in school textbooks, like George Washington or Erwin Rommel or something. Now my life goals are a lot more specific, vivid, and because I have fleshed them out, tangible & doable.

I have come a long way from the person I was 4 years ago, yet I still have a long way to go.


2 thoughts on “Reflections: I’m Getting Older

    • Shit. Three years later, I could write this very post. I’m a change man – not who once was – yet this post would not have to be rewritten to be appropriate and relevant were I publish it once more.

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