Had A Dad

Are you tired of repeating things to your children over, and over, and over, and over again? Are you scratching your head at the daunting task of being a good parent in an age of rapidly evolving technology? Do you wonder what you can do to leave behind not only financial but a wealth of knowledge to your children? Me too! And I don’t even have kids yet…or any that I know of!

Behold! Had A Dad* Youtube Channel!

The other night, Ace & I were chatting the wee morning hours away as I got off my shift as we sometimes do and the conversation drifted towards a vape that I had sent him. I bought it, discovered I didn’t like it and otherwise had no use for it, and sent it to Ace given he’s into vaping in his quest to quit smoking cigarettes.

He told me about how in the time it had spent in USPS limbo (I accidentally sent it to an old address of his), the vape solution leaked out in the box, got everywhere, and hardened. So, he had to clean his healthy gotten gain for hours before he could even enjoy it. He confessed he didn’t know how to use it and that the instruction booklet I’d included in the package wasn’t very helpful. He looked up it up on youtube but only really found product reviews that talked about its features, pros, and cons; and nary a video that actually described how to use it. I think he’s resigned to going to a vape shop to seek the arcane knowledge when it comes to the proper way to cast a spell by blowing vape rings…I mean, how to use the damn thing.

A light bulb appeared in my head and I mentioned that there was a youtube channel, Dad How do I? that was highlighted in the media about this guy who created a youtube channel that goes over basic house maintenance, things that people who grew up without a Dad probably wouldn’t know, given that the channel creator himself grew up without one.

Rob Kenney has been dubbed the “Internet’s Dad” after starting a Youtube
channel called “Dad, How Do I?” this past April — and his how-to videos
have since gone majorly viral.

Kenney knows what it’s like not to have a dad to turn to growing up, and
tells PEOPLE that his own father’s absence was part of what inspired him to
start “Dad, How Do I?” 

“My dad left me as a teenager, and after that, I determined I would never
do that to my family,” he explains. “Now I am creating videos about things I
wish I knew how to do when I was younger.”

Ace mentioned how he thought of the idea about three years back and I told him that while he might be late to the party, it’s not too late to do something like that. The market is probably not saturated and even if he set up a channel that sees few views and nary a cent from monetization, those videos can still be extremely useful. As far as I know, he doesn’t have any young ones though does desire them someday. Should he pursue Fatherhood at an advanced age, he can leave behind these, “Dad How do I?” type videos as a combination of passing on knowledge to his children, but also leaving them behind a way to see him as he was at a certain time. A way to see that he loved them very much and I wanted them to know it and not just because he was showing them how to tie a tie. But because in the mess of life in the West today, bleak as the future may be, his love for his children compelled him to leave something substantial behind for them. Proof that despite all the weight on his shoulders, his love for his own compelled him to take time and effort out of what limited amount he had left, to leave his progeny something they can appreciate for the rest of their lives.

I too wish to do the same for my own, though my solution is not as elegant as video clips that can show tone of voice, facial expressions, body language, among other cues. I got the idea of a continuity book, like the one that anyone in a position of authority is supposed to leave for their successor. A book that has lessons learned, problems solved and how they were solved, unsolved mysteries, current problems, etc. so the oncoming officer can get a running start on his first day. I’d like to do the same with my life and see if I can’t capture some of those from my Dad, because I am afraid my memory will betray me long before I remember I want to pass knowledge at the moments I naturally would for my children.

I must admit, that is a small part of why I write this blog. Because my children will be allowed to read it at some point. And at that point, it will have advanced far beyond the once nearly single-minded pursuit of skirts to Fatherhood, being a good, moral person in a fallen world while accidentally booking yourself a ticket up or down too early by accident.

So, should I have children in the future like I hope to, this is to you guys.

Know that I love you very much. No matter what happens between us or the rest of the family, ultimately, it’s us against the world, always.

Love,

Wald

*Future Youtube Channel That He Will Someday….Soon

80 Proof Playlist Update #4

I’ve decided to update the ol’ 80 Proof Playlist, because why not:

Here’s the latest round of song, in chronological order of the posts published. This time, I’ll also post some feedback on the song/post.

  1. “This is not a love song; this isn’t fantasy-land…” (Rush – Cold Fire)
    1. I actually didn’t like this song at first, but now it’s grown on me. I like the post as I see it as a very good basic building block of a relationship – settings expectations for better or worse. I believe I made my own version based on it and I think I’m going to make a second, revised version. Below is one of his best points.
    2. 18. If you have a problem with me, I expect you to tell me about it. I will continue to behave the way I do until I’m clearly told it is unacceptable. I may continue even afterwords but I’m willing to listen to reason.

  2. “After I count down three rounds…” – (The Dead South – In Hell I’ll Be In Good Company)
    1. This song is often stuck in my head after I give it a listen. Then I listen to it 20 times to get it through my system. Then 20 more.
  3. “Here besides news of holy war and holy need…” – (Duran Duran – Ordinary World)
    1. This is another song that grew on me. I’m not normally a fan of Duran Duran, beyond a few recognized hits. As for the post, I like it because it references important posts in Ace’s inventory, which makes it easier for me to reference them later.
  4. “Am I the righteous or the damned?” – (In This Moment – Oh Lord)
    1. Besides a good song, I like this post because it’s a promise to get to 52 posts in a year. Which I greatly appreciate given that Ace’s blog is one of the few I still read.
  5. “But find the ones that bring you life and you’ll find me” – (Nothing More – Fade In/Fade Out)
    1. This song rends my heart. It scares me. It reminds me that my Father is about to turn 70 this year, and though he looks around 10-20 years younger, depending on the day, when he started caring for my Mother after her stroke three years ago, it was the first time I’d seen him tired. The first time I’d seen him as an old man. The first time I’d seen him as normal. The first time I’d realized that he’d eventually fade out, just like my grandparents. I’m not ready for that at all.
    2. I enjoy homework assignments.
  6. “When the night is young and the land is dark…” (Stand By Me – Barron, Lemmy Kilminster, Dave Lombardo)
    1. I can appreciate the experience Ace talks about in this post as I’ve lived it a couple times. Even though I misinterpreted the homework assignment, I got out an email that contains a lot of what I should have said to someone some 3-8 years sooner than I did. The song’s an interesting variation, too.
  7. “I don’t have to look at you to see in yours eyes…” – (Drain – Right Through You)
    1. This song is eeriely beautiful. And it came in my life a time so appropriate for it that I don’t think it was just happenstance.
    2. It makes an extremely good point about how women tend to look for the meaning in what people don’t say or reveal. Which is an interesting way to look at things – it also makes more sense why some women are attracted to men who look like outright scumbags, besides the obvious talking points.
  8. “She’s got a smile that heals me…” – (Billy Joel – She’s Got a Way)
    1. I’m a fan of Billy Joel.
    2. There’s so much negativity around that we often forget there’s a very good reason that men naturally want women in their lives. It’s just that their natural programming to be a helpmeet to the right man is subverted by propaganda and societal messages that invert natural drives and incentivize the worst in women rather than rewarding their best and discouraging otherwise.
  9. “Behind the curtain, in the pantomime…” – (Queen – The Show Must Go On)
    1. I’m a fan of Queen
    2. I really like the central message of the song – too many men let a bad relationship or even worse, the end of a good one, torpedo their lives. I’m guilty of this to an extent as well, though I’m better than I used to be.
    3. I like that Ace reminds the reader that he’s learned things the hard way and has suffered plenty himself, rather than just pretending he was either always an Alpha Male or that he just magically found the keys to the kingdom and you too, for the price of $69.99, can be ballsdeep in a tsunami of women like me!
  10. “No way to prepare; impending despair…” (Type O Negative – Anesthesia)
    1. I’m slowly becoming a Type O Negative fan.
    2. This song has an eerie quality to it. Ace has said, a couple of times, that he hopes to be your dark secret that you read under the covers with a flashlight under the dark of night. This song is great background music for it.
    3. I agree with the premise to this post; loss and how you deal with it, are more responsible for your success with women than many things. Hell, most men, including myself, were drawn to this corner of the web because an overwhelming sense of loss. Loss of a loved one, and perceived loss of future opportunities due to lack of knowledge.

~Wald

“What hurts the most; having so much to say, and seeing you walk away…”

No matter how many break-ups you go through, the next one is always going to hurt.

No matter how many break-ups you go through, you’ll never be truly prepared for when a girl just disappears [like a ghost].

What hurts the most was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’ what could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was trying to do

The feeling of not being done yet, yet powerless to do anything about what’s going on or to ascertain what might have been. Powerlessness combined with the fear of the unknown. I don’t care who you are, there’s few things that match this particular pain. Even if you think you’ve seen it all.

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doing it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up, gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Recognize any of that?

After dealing with 4 ghosts in the past two years, one of which confused me, two of which hurt, and the one the rended my heart, I’d like to add to some excellent advice that my good friend Ace has already provided on the subject and answer some potentially frequently asked questions on the subject.

  1. Get a support group of people you trust to whom you can vent about the girl and (over-analyze it if you must). Having a large group of people is important, because you’ll get tired of talking about before anyone in your support group does. Telling the story to more than three people makes the story get old, to the point where you’re actually fed up about it enough to stop thinking about it so hard.
    1. My support group at one point consisted of (* = most important/helpful):
      1. Dad (vent/advice/sounding board)*
      2. Brother (vent)
      3. Sister (vent)
      4. Sister’s Husband (vent/advice)
      5. Mother (vent)
      6. Best Friend (vent/sounding board)
      7. Family friend (vent/sounding board)
      8. Family friend’s Mom (vent/sounding board)
      9. Mentor (vent/advice/sounding board)*
  2. Write it out. Write as much or little (and as meaningful) as possible on the subject as you can allow yourself. This will get some of the pain out of your head and on paper. It’ll help you think less of things because you’ll not worry about forgetting details, especially the good parts. Might help you come to terms with things or see them in a sober light if you take a break and come back for a review.
    1. Here a couple of examples of this in action:
      1. Russian-Thought Criminal
      2. Smarty Pants
  3. Realize there’s a reason for everything and sometimes it’s not you. Sadly, since you don’t know what could have been it’s hard to accept that things are over when you aren’t ready for them. Realize that ultimately, you’re better off that these relationships are over. Yes – I know. As someone who’s employed to get shot at and live, I never thought it could hurt so much to dodge a bullet either.
  4. Give yourself time to recover. Of course it hurts. Attempting to deceive yourself into thinking it doesn’t or that you’re perfectly fine doesn’t work. Often times, bottling your emotions just means that they’ll come out at a time you didn’t expect when you can least afford it. Try to give yourself a reasonable deadline to mourn the relationship. Allow yourself to listen to sad songs. Allow yourself to stare off into space. Allow yourself to drone on about it to your support group. In my experience, the pain leaves sooner when I let it go through rather than attempt to block it or otherwise bottle it up.
  5. Date girls who live close by. It’s easier to see the signs in girls who live close by. They’re less likely to ghost on you as they’re more likely to run into you and you can better gauge how they feel about things and more importantly, you. This doesn’t mean you can unequivocally stop a ghosting, but rather see it before it happens and prepare for it, at least.
  6. If you have something to say, say it. If you think there’s something you need to do, do it. A medium plan executed now is better than a good plan executed later. Women are creatures of the moment. If you don’t say what you need to say or do what you need to do at the moment it’s time, you don’t usually get another chance. So don’t worry too much about saying or doing the wrong thing, as you’ll always regret and beat yourself up over inaction over action. Every time. Sometimes all you can say is that you still like her and that she knows where to find you when she realizes her mistake.
  7. Vocalize your dislike for ghosting to each girl you start to see. Say it’s because you don’t want to waste your time or hers. You may not (ok, probably won’t) get the whole, complete, honest answer why things are over, but you’ll probably at least get clear message that things are over. This will stop you at least from wondering where you stand what you could have done about your heretofore unsure standing. This won’t work 100% of the time, but it’s worked so far for me.

Frequently Asked Questions:

1) Does it ever get easier? Does it ever stop hurting?

No. It doesn’t really get easier and it doesn’t stop hurting. Eventually, you find it within you to carry on despite the pain. To my mind, the quality of girl and circumstances around the ghosting determine the recovery period from a measly couple of weeks to many miserable months.

2) How do I make it hurt less?

Make yourself busy to the point where you don’t have time to sit around and be sorry for yourself (that is not saying do not deal with it!). Eventually you don’t think about it because you don’t have time to and therefore won’t dwell on the pain, cutting old wounds afresh.

3) Is there anything I can do about her leaving?

You can do nothing. Anything else will make it worse and in time you’ll regret. Contacting her in hopes of the small dopamine hits you get from talking to her, seeing her, will take their toll on you when the withdrawal from what you really want from her (everything) hits you.

4. Will she ever come back?

No. Don’t even go there. Out of 6 ghostings, one girl messaged me back 9 months later after no contact, to tell me that she found out she Ovarian cancer shortly before she broke it off and blocked me on all social media. She didn’t come back to me, she just got in touch with me to let me know what happened out of guilt and because she thought I was over her. She was mostly right. Regardless, the more you accept your fate (it’s over) and that there’s nothing you can do about it, the more likely you are to get a second bite of the apple.

Hope this helped.

~Wald

80 Proof Playlist Complete

I’ve gone through Ace’s blog and have added 9 songs to the 80 Proof Playlist, bringing it to 80 songs in length. As you read this, I’m working on the youtube playlist to bring it up to date.

  1. “..and I place a nameless stone.” (A Pale Horse Named Death – Shallow Grave)
  2. “Times have changed and times are strange…” (Ozzy Osbourne – Mama, I’m Coming Home)
  3. “I just wanna lay here and let myself die…” (A Pale Horse Named Death – DMSLT)
  4. “…zero to 60, can it outrun her memory?” (Montgomery Gentry – Speed)
  5. “…still got that feelin’ but I’m too old to die young now.” (Brother Dege – Too Old to Die Young)
  6. “How low low low can we keep digging this hole until we come out on the otherside?” (Red Sun Rising – The Otherside)
  7. “To feel the pain that spurs you on” (Alice in Chains – Your Decision)
  8. “…trying to be me, oh, it ain’t easy…” (Bad Company – Simple Man)
  9. “Sent a letter on a long summer day.” (Journey – Wheel in the Sky)

These songs are a bit dark. The last 5 from no.4 to no.9 will no doubt find their way into your ears more than appropriate, when you endure a break up.

All my best to you and yours.
~Wald

80 Proof Playlist Update #2

It’s time for another update for the 80 Proof Playlist:

80 Proof Playlist (SBP)

First off, commenter Autist Overlord Attack Helicopter, asked me to make a youtube playlist. I’ve done so. It’s actually pretty simple to do; here are the instructions:

80 Proof Playlist Update #2 (SBP)

Here’s the youtube playlist.

Due to the nature of youtube playlists, I’m unable to get Ace’s own song “Quake” (it’s on soundcloud) on the youtube playlist unless Ace himself decides to put that song on youtube.

I’ve added 16 new songs to my playlist and to the actual youtube playlist, bringing the total of songs to 72.

  1. “Singin’ the blues while the lady cats cry..” (Stray Cats – Stray Cat Strut)
  2. “…if you will please, move in closer…” (Saliva – Ladies and Gentlemen)
  3. “…telling tales of drunkenness and cruelty…” (The Kinks – Sunny Afternoon)
  4. “…you wouldn’t stay with me if something better comes along…” (Wolfsheim – Find You’re Here)
  5. “The look on your face don’t deceive me; I told you before, so believe me…” (KLOQ – We’re Just Physical)
  6. “…Tell me, mother, will I die?’ ‘Yes, my child, and so shall I’…” (Chris Isaak – Black Flowers)
  7. “…heroin drip, no more so…” (Selena Gomez – The Heart Wants What It Wants)
  8. “…when the band plays Hail to the Chief, they point the cannon at you…” (Creedence Clearwater Revival – Fortunate Son)
  9. “…a hell of a revelation too sudden and insidious to escape…” (Rob Dougan – Clubbed To Death
  10. “You thought you made a man, you better think again…” (Audioslave – Show Me How To Live)
  11. “When your line is crossed, I get off…” (Halestorm – I Get Off)
  12. “Now I bleed for you; burn for me…” (Type O Negative – Blood And Fire)
  13. “Arm yourself because no one else here will save you…” (Chris Cornell – You Know My Name)
  14. “Don’t care if he’s guilty; don’t care if he’s not…” (The Civil Wars – Devil’s Backbone)
  15. “That’s why I cut you just to heal you.” (Hugo – Hurt Makes It Beautiful)
  16. “I just wanna lay here and let myself die…” (DMSLT – A Pale Horse Named Death)

Please enjoy responsibly.

~Wald

Random Thoughts #3

Before I take the time to write a proper wrap of my #NoNothingNovember, I’ll include this brief thought I had from a conversation I had with my best friend last night.

As you may recall, I once wrote a post on Sisyphus and the human condition.

“…to be human is to struggle. Life is struggle”

When I was talking with my buddy, conversation turned to that theme again and I said:

Humans need a mountain to climb. For men, that mountain is accomplishment, accolades, and other achievements. For women, the mountain is you. Don’t give them a peak.

To clarify what I mean you could go back and refer to what I said further, in my Sisyphus post:

Inertia is death…

Why would a man wish for a neverending mountain? Because…at the top of the mountain, it’s nothing but downhill from there.

But there’s a man who’s said it better than I – for, though he uses more words saying it in the long form, a certain nuance is made apparent; and that nuance might make all the difference. But I want you to focus on a specific part – which commenter Earl pontificates upon.

Ace - P23-02-2014 Comment by Earl

After reading his post for the third or fourth time; after my thoughts writing this post and my thoughts reading his post coalesced; I posted this comment.

Upon further reflection, I think the issue is that one cannot be “satisfied” with a women in a relationship, especially if she is “the one”. For the day you are satisfied is the day she is not.

Satisfaction is the peak from which she can only see downhill.

The higher value the man, the steeper the climb.

The less secure the man, the steep the descent.

And the more “game” a man has, the steeper he can make the ascent, the more gradual he can make the descent, and perhaps he might be able to convince her to make one more trip back up, for a better look at the view if he finds her on the way back down.

I don’t think I have it completely correct. I might not even be close. I am, however, getting closer.

Wald

This concept and the one explored in this post are related. But how and to what extent?

English translation of the lyrics.

80 Proof Playlist

80 Proof Playlist (SBP)

I’ve been reading Ace’s blog seriously since sometime February last year. I enjoy what he has to say and find myself going over old posts every now and then. Another thing that really keeps me coming back is the music. He picks songs for each new post he makes and they all have relevance to the issue at hand. Listening to the songs enhances the reading experience immensely.

Also – Ace has fantastic taste in music. So without further ado – I present the 80 Proof Playlist: 72 of the best* songs. Here it is on youtube.

  1. “Good God, you’re coming up with reasons; good God, you’re dragging it out…” (Seether – Fake It)
  2. “If my heart were still alive, I know it would surely break…” (Megadeth – A Tout Le Monde)
  3. “It’s unlikely the world will end tomorrow-“ (Soundgarden – Black Hole Sun)
  4. “How will I know that you’ll be good, doing the things you know you should?” (Dommin – My Heart, Your Hands)
  5. “Shhhhh, it’s Ok; it’s just me.” (Panzer AG – Monster)
  6. “Open up your eyes…” (Tonic – Open Up Your Eyes)
  7. “Are we having fun yet?” (Nickelback – You Remind Me)
  8. “…no one cares in this world; where a girl loves a boy…” (Alizee – La Isla Bonita)
  9. “…but it wasn’t because I didn’t know enough…” (Gnarls Barkley – Crazy)
  10. “Two packs of cigarettes a day; the strongest whiskey Kentucky can make…” (Shinedown – What a Shame)
  11. “Trust I seek and I find in you…”  (Apocalyptica – Nothing Else Matters)
  12. “C’est pas ma faute..” (Alizee – Moi Lolita)
  13. “…to take us out of the dark…” (James Brown – It’s a Man’s Man’s Man’s World)
  14. “…brought way too much baggage.” (My Darkest Days – Porn Star Dancing)
  15. “Keep fighting ’til the end and past the end you’ll be strong.” (Shawn Lee’s Ping Pong Orchestra)
  16. “…but I feel none.” (Wolfsheim – Find You’re Gone)
  17. “Hey, son, I never told anyone…” (Charm City Devils – Devil is a Woman)
  18. “If you like to gamble, I tell you I’m your man…” ( Motörhead – Ace of Spade
  19. “I can hardly hear you say ‘What should I do?’; Well, you choose…” (JET – Look What You’ve Done)
  20. “And you got high on every little game…” (The Civil Wars – The One that Got Away)
  21. “…’Cause my shackles, you won’t be; my rapture, you won’t believe.” (Vertical Horizon – Shackled)
  22. “Just like smoke that fades and makes no sound…” (Shaman’s Harvest – Broken Dreams)
  23. “Hang my head, drown my fear; ’till you all just disappear…” (Chris Cornell – Black Hole Sun)
  24. “…it’s telling me all these these things you would probably hide.”  (Saliva – Always
  25. “This state is elevating as the hurt turns into hating…” (Korn – Here to Stay)
  26. “…I can see you’re out of aces; for a taste of your whiskey, I’ll give you some advice.” (Kenny Rogers – The Gambler)
  27. “I don’t know if I’ll cry; I don’t know if I’ll die laughing.” (Bad Company – Gone Gone Gone)
  28. “Do your demons – do they ever let go?” (Dio – Rainbow in the Dark)
  29. “The kitchen counter is a bad reminder of a better time…” (Thornley – So Far, So Good)
  30. “So much for your high-brow, Marxist ways…” (White Town – Your Woman)
  31. “What a wicked thing to say… (This world is only gonna break your heart.)”(HIM – Wicked Game)
  32. “Your membrane will be soft and smooth and your heart will be mine…” (Greenskeepers – Lotion)
  33. “The judge said ‘This man’s a danger to humanity’…” (Bad Company – Burning Sky)
  34. “What she said was not for the job or lover that she never had…” (The Smiths – What She Said)
  35. “Any love I gleaned from you, I had to beg, steal, or borrow…” (Oinomancer – Quake)
  36. “Just like every cowboy…” (Poison – Every Rose has its Thorn)
  37. “Promise me nothing; live ’til we die…” (Motörhead – Love Me Forever)
  38. “…every vow you break; every smile you fake…” (The Police – Every Breath You Take)
  39. “…because you know sometimes words have two meanings.” (Led Zeppelin -Stairway to Heaven)
  40. “But I’ve been waiting for this moment for all my life…” (Phil Collins – In the Air Tonight)
  41. “When all in all we’re just like you…” (Spacehog – In the Meantime)
  42. “And I have all the time in the world – to make you mine…” (Depeche Mode – It’s No Good)
  43. “And I will plead no contest if loving you’s a crime…” (Motörhead – One More Fucking Time)
  44. “I dare you to call my bluff; [I] can’t take too much of a good thing…” (Halestorm – I Miss The Misery)
  45. “Don’t forget this fact – you can’t get it back…” (J.J. CALE – Cocaine)
  46. “They’re sharing a drink called loneliness, but it’s better than drinking alone.” (Billy Joel – Piano Man)
  47. “I try to convince myself that the plane is not gone.” (Slaughter – Fly to the Angels)
  48. “…saeclum in favilla” (Mozart – Requiem in D minor)
  49. “There’s nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home…” (Six:AM – Life is Beautiful)
  50. “This will never end ’cause I want more.” (Fever Ray – If I had a Heart)
  51. “Forever in debt to your priceless advice…” (Lana Del Ray Cover of Nirvana – Heart Shaped Box)
  52. “But I can’t fix you and you don’t want me…” (She Wants Revenge – Someone Must Get Hurt)
  53. “…you feed it once and now it stays…”  (Metallica – Until it sleeps)
  54. “In the dawn, I wake up to find her gone and a note says:”  (Tito & Tarantula – After Dark)
  55. “Trust me and take my hand; when the lights go out, you’ll understand…” (Three Days Grace – Pain)
  56. “If I can’t swim after 40 days…” (Jars of Clay – Flood)
  57. “Singin’ the blues while the lady cats cry..” (Stray Cats – Stray Cat Strut)
  58. “…if you will please, move in closer…” (Saliva – Ladies and Gentlemen)
  59. “…telling tales of drunkenness and cruelty…” (The Kinks – Sunny Afternoon)
  60. “…you wouldn’t stay with me if something better comes along…” (Wolfsheim – Find You’re Here)
  61. “The look on your face don’t deceive me; I told you before, so believe me…” (KLOQ – We’re Just Physical)
  62. “…Tell me, mother, will I die?’ ‘Yes, my child, and so shall I’…” (Chris Isaak – Black Flowers)
  63. “…heroin drip, no more so…” (Selena Gomez – The Heart Wants What It Wants)
  64. “…when the band plays Hail to the Chief, they point the cannon at you…” (Creedence Clearwater Revival – Fortunate Son)
  65. “…a hell of a revelation too sudden and insidious to escape…” (Rob Dougan – Clubbed To Death
  66. “You thought you made a man, you better think again…” (Audioslave – Show Me How To Live)
  67. “When your line is crossed, I get off…” (Halestorm – I Get Off)
  68. “Now I bleed for you; burn for me…” (Type O Negative – Blood And Fire)
  69. “Arm yourself because no one else here will save you…” (Chris Cornell – You Know My Name)
  70. “Don’t care if he’s guilty; don’t care if he’s not…” (The Civil Wars – Devil’s Backbone)
  71. “That’s why I cut you just to heal you.” (Hugo – Hurt Makes It Beautiful)
  72. “I just wanna lay here and let myself die…” (DMSLT – A Pale Horse Named Death)

Please enjoy responsibly.

~Wald

*My opinion

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